May 10th, 2023
Dear Journal,
Now I’m left wondering if Michael really was into me or if I made it all up. I suspect I may have turned him away with my lack of goodbyes and I’m feeling regret and a little silly. It’s just that he seems like a great guy, or at least a normal dude. He seems like a good listener, sensitive, and receptive. He’s intelligent and has a kind smile.
I just wish I could happen upon him on campus and strike up a conversation with him. I already think of him first thing in the morning and like to imagine that I cook meals for the both of us. We live together and help each other out.
I just really want to be in a serious relationship and I am hoping this works out, kinda like a confirmation bias. I know relationships can get tricky and have their messy, uncomfortable parts but I’m willing to do the work with him. To figure out domestic life together. The cooking and cleaning and other household tasks. I think I just want to settle down into married life and I’m hoping Michael might be the right guy to do so with. I give a wholehearted YES to the love, the compromise, the sex, the chores, the merging of families, the messiness of the legal process (he’s not a US citizen), the difficulties of daily life. I don’t want to think of myself as naive about these challenges.
With him by my side and these thoughts in mind I want to step forward and declare myself a grown, adult woman.
Love as always,
Amy Lee
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